yes, yes i know i dont open my blog for like 2 weeks? hmm long enough. usually i update this once a week. but remembering all the exams, and stripping lessons; guess i have to focus on what i really want to achieve. so my midtest? not so well. i didnt study alot like i used to. i ruin my chem, math, plants cultivation, and P.R . its odd when you do sports, like i mean sports, you exercise; but you have some writing test. the worst part is my math. yes, this subject is even one of the subject in national exam, and i ruin it. i was thinking, what would the national exam be? will i passed it? anyway that will be some other stories.
im really sorry if i dont have enough time to update this :( because i cant update it from my phone. so if you like to follow my twitter (i still update my twitter whenever i feel stuck with studying) http://twitter.com/bocillovelife :) merci beaucoup! -aisyahsabrina
17 Oktober 2009
06 Oktober 2009
quick post!
im having miserable feelings. hmm yayaa, uts is coming and he's not texting me. so mean yeah. bikin gue khawatir aja. so i got this from my friend: Dara Amalia Pratiwi she wrote her status on facebook
bikin gw jadi semangat lagi! :DD
Kebahagiaan menjagamu tetap cantik, Cobaan menjagamu tetap kuat, Kesedihan menjagamu tetap manusiawi, Kegagalan menjagamu tetap tegar, Sukses menjagamu tetap bersinar, tapi hanya kepercayaan & tingkah laku membuatmu terus hidup....
bikin gw jadi semangat lagi! :DD
01 Oktober 2009
yesterday, today, tomorrow
yesterday...
i don't know what should i call it for that day; the best day or just-another-ordinary-day or even the worst day? though i had fun so much when i'm with him. we went around jakarta, yeap muter-muter ga jelas juntrungannya gara-gara ga tau mau kemana. haha sampe lupa makan! i was so starving, then at the end we went to blenger burger at bintaro aaaaa -_____- jauh abis dari rumahnya. maaf ya mbul.
so next? oh yeah. the serious part of our, what? relationship? no no no, we don't even start yet. i care for him, and so does he; but we don't start our relationship. why? there are some dilemmas in our heart. another part of him and me (of course lah) wanting each other so bad. yes yes indeed. but, he wants to see me success. i mean; i will finish my high school this year (amiin!) and i will enter a university, somewhere there.. but i guess this is the year when i will choose what's the best for me. this is the turning point where i have to be able to see, where am i gonna be? what kind of job do i want? what can i do to make my life, even someone else's life better? this is also the part of me; wanting to be mature. i guess i'm taking steps for being a mature.
okay, enough the-me-parts.
so he said, "i want you to be a nice daughter for your parents. i took the wrong steps, i did not do what my mom told me to do. and know? after she passed away, i regret everything i done that reverse to what she told me. i want to see you success."
(here it comes the best part) then what do we feel?
first, how do i feel?
well i'm not kinda person who decline all the bad things happened to me. or i don't really curse to people. i get mad on certain cases. but in this case? i don't. i was like, "oh okay." it hurts alot, i cried yes. but you know what? i thank to God for meeting me with him. in my love life, i've never meet someone who understands me so much especially in my education part. they always like, "oh come on. school is just for killing the time." helloooo??? i take school for serious yaa. it's my education. my future is in my hand. i have to get good grades and get well-educated so i can be a great person, for my family, even for my society! (amiin)
then how do he feel?
i guess, he was about the same. it feel hurts, yes. i can't tell you how he feel, takut salah. hehe
so the conclusion is: we both feel hurt with our own decision. i mean, doesn't it iritating so much when you want someone so bad; you're even already get so close with that person, then you don't continue your relationship because you have something else to pursuit; and the hardest part-the thing you want to pursuit is for you own future. doesn't it iritating?
he said, "one thing for sure, you have to let go something if you want to have something. you can't have both at the same time."
i guess, it's time for me to learn to be mature. i'm 17, and sometimes i feel like a 7. i have to learn how to let go something-to pursuit my future-though i still wait for him. i have to start believing that, everything that happens to me for a purpose. this maybe a start of us. but who knows? God only knows.
today...
it's my first day to school! i'm so excited for going back to school. i feel like i have to fill my brain with something useful, ha! kinda weird. i never feel happy going back to school after a long holiday, even a short one :D i guess i have to start liking school, this is my last year for going to school. next year i'll be in college (amin! semoga yaaa :DD) tough i have to cancel my departure to Lubang Buaya, there was a Hari Kesaktian Pancasila ceremony. but poor 2009 :( our president SBY didn't come for the ceremony. he's still in Pittsburgh for G-20 conference. but my friends said that they want to go karaoke! i wish i could go with them! amiin :D
tomorrow...
will be the "Hari Batik Nasional" so those of you who are Indonesian (!!!) you have to wear batik tomorrow. show to the world that batik is our culture:) besok mau jalan2 pake batik aaaahhhhh :))
oh yeah, one thing why i always tell my own stories because i just want to share it with you all. no offense 'o' i just love to share, and somehow; i feel like i know you people out there are having or had or even will have a problem like i have know, so yeaa.. i just want you to know that you're not alone.
sending the x's and o's
aisyah sabrina ♥
i don't know what should i call it for that day; the best day or just-another-ordinary-day or even the worst day? though i had fun so much when i'm with him. we went around jakarta, yeap muter-muter ga jelas juntrungannya gara-gara ga tau mau kemana. haha sampe lupa makan! i was so starving, then at the end we went to blenger burger at bintaro aaaaa -_____- jauh abis dari rumahnya. maaf ya mbul.
so next? oh yeah. the serious part of our, what? relationship? no no no, we don't even start yet. i care for him, and so does he; but we don't start our relationship. why? there are some dilemmas in our heart. another part of him and me (of course lah) wanting each other so bad. yes yes indeed. but, he wants to see me success. i mean; i will finish my high school this year (amiin!) and i will enter a university, somewhere there.. but i guess this is the year when i will choose what's the best for me. this is the turning point where i have to be able to see, where am i gonna be? what kind of job do i want? what can i do to make my life, even someone else's life better? this is also the part of me; wanting to be mature. i guess i'm taking steps for being a mature.
okay, enough the-me-parts.
so he said, "i want you to be a nice daughter for your parents. i took the wrong steps, i did not do what my mom told me to do. and know? after she passed away, i regret everything i done that reverse to what she told me. i want to see you success."
(here it comes the best part) then what do we feel?
first, how do i feel?
well i'm not kinda person who decline all the bad things happened to me. or i don't really curse to people. i get mad on certain cases. but in this case? i don't. i was like, "oh okay." it hurts alot, i cried yes. but you know what? i thank to God for meeting me with him. in my love life, i've never meet someone who understands me so much especially in my education part. they always like, "oh come on. school is just for killing the time." helloooo??? i take school for serious yaa. it's my education. my future is in my hand. i have to get good grades and get well-educated so i can be a great person, for my family, even for my society! (amiin)
then how do he feel?
i guess, he was about the same. it feel hurts, yes. i can't tell you how he feel, takut salah. hehe
so the conclusion is: we both feel hurt with our own decision. i mean, doesn't it iritating so much when you want someone so bad; you're even already get so close with that person, then you don't continue your relationship because you have something else to pursuit; and the hardest part-the thing you want to pursuit is for you own future. doesn't it iritating?
he said, "one thing for sure, you have to let go something if you want to have something. you can't have both at the same time."
i guess, it's time for me to learn to be mature. i'm 17, and sometimes i feel like a 7. i have to learn how to let go something-to pursuit my future-though i still wait for him. i have to start believing that, everything that happens to me for a purpose. this maybe a start of us. but who knows? God only knows.
today...
it's my first day to school! i'm so excited for going back to school. i feel like i have to fill my brain with something useful, ha! kinda weird. i never feel happy going back to school after a long holiday, even a short one :D i guess i have to start liking school, this is my last year for going to school. next year i'll be in college (amin! semoga yaaa :DD) tough i have to cancel my departure to Lubang Buaya, there was a Hari Kesaktian Pancasila ceremony. but poor 2009 :( our president SBY didn't come for the ceremony. he's still in Pittsburgh for G-20 conference. but my friends said that they want to go karaoke! i wish i could go with them! amiin :D
tomorrow...
will be the "Hari Batik Nasional" so those of you who are Indonesian (!!!) you have to wear batik tomorrow. show to the world that batik is our culture:) besok mau jalan2 pake batik aaaahhhhh :))
oh yeah, one thing why i always tell my own stories because i just want to share it with you all. no offense 'o' i just love to share, and somehow; i feel like i know you people out there are having or had or even will have a problem like i have know, so yeaa.. i just want you to know that you're not alone.
sending the x's and o's
aisyah sabrina ♥
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