Jakarta, 9 March 2009
Dear Dad,
It has been almost 3 years since you've gone. I wonder how are you there? Hope it's okay because I've been praying to Allah for you, so I guess.. yeah, you'll be fine. I wonder how long you haven't come to my dreams? I just want to see you by myself, though I can see you in the picture that mom put in the living room. But it feels different. I wonder are you missing me? 'Cause I do, a lot. So that's why I wrote this.
I know that I'm not a really good daughter to you. I don't like too much the feeling of your-just-growing-mustache because it makes me feel some weird-o-sensation. I feel weird and odd when you hugged me. I don't show how much I love you, indeed. But then, I really believe that I just have to let my heart be filled with your memories. Not by moaning it, but let it grow stronger. I know your body is not here anymore, but I can always feel you spirit is always protecting me. Then, I will absolutely sure that you're happy seeing me happy as a bird's song in the morning. I love you dad, and will always do.
Hope your Father in the best position there.. Nothing can change the destiny like I lose my beloved grandma and my best friend.. (huhu.. he died in the young age.. 15!)
BalasHapusTabah dan sabar ya, Aisyaahh